Crawling in next to her it’s hard to disguise my frame against her warm back shoulder careful to keep my cold hands far from this girl. The dream girl for sure she and her secret charms I’ve not given up on yet. The world ceases to exist when she falls asleep first because in her exclusive world she has just one chance of going deeply under. Slowly her hip shifts she settles and comes to rest I place a single cover over her careful not to touch or disturb. I’ve been trained well enough to recognize her sleeping position this being her one and only chance she’ll actually ever rest. I’m careful to pay attention watching her eyelids flutter far off and chasing constantly searching to be loved. I do all this because the nights when she cannot rest she needs a way to burn her nervous energy. There on top of a sleepless world she rides to slay and conquer getting all saddle sweaty she rides hard into the night up until her tiny body falls forward and collapses. Mirroring her heavy breathing she reaches for the iced water I can hear each individual gulp. With everything now done and settled she can finally get her rest simple names mean more to her than the stupid pet names I crave to use with her. The world has changed with a quick and easy gesture I better not wake her.