Emotions fell by the wayside
there wasn’t much to discuss,
flashbulbs seemed to do all the talking.
Summer meant being wasteful
sunbathing with late afternoon drinks
reading about some heinous murder.
People were warned to stay away from her
time passed without too much interference,
that was until, she fell in love.
The dreadful circumstances of feeling,
she hated giving, but worse than that
her narcissism was now given a voice.
She couldn’t control her outbursts anymore
her drinking had increased ten-fold
and the more she tried to put hate on him,
the deeper she found herself in her head.
Sure, there were happy couples around her
clearly she was smart enough to copy them
she couldn’t quite duplicate their look.
The harder she tried avoiding him
other pieces were magnified in her life,
glaring, missing pieces that one can’t forget.
Still, as long as she had her phone
she could trick herself into thinking
that her anonymously secret feelings
would get to him unnoticed.