I Swear I Do

Pretty in your own way
it’s a disaster
for me to be so drawn.
The tiny little things
that draw me in
drive me insane
I can’t quite quit
because there’s never
enough to quench
the thirst in my eyes,
and there you are.
Our sessions
demand everything be held
in exact detail
I’ve memorized
every part
I lay beside you
time and attention
in equal measure
and when I fall down
you’re there
picking me up
being extra careful
not to jar
all the broken pieces.
I keep perfectly still.
So you’re the girl,
the one I adore
the one I can’t
say I love
because if I do
it would take centuries
to undo.